When you have two little ones

If you'd never one read my blog or didn't know me...

And asked me about myself the first thing I'd tell you is I'm a mom.

It's not exactly the most important thing. That is, I'm a child of God. 

There's other things about me too, like I'm married and recently decided I'm going to go for my dream, I'm going to start my own photography business, but first, I'd tell you I'm a mom. 

Because that is what I spend most of the time doing, being mom. 

No matter where I am, no matter what I'm doing, I'm always mom to my children. 

I'd also tell you that being a mom of two - a two year and three month old- is hard. 

When you have two littles ones, like I do, lots of days can be hard.
You aim to put all your focus on them.
There's so much that needs your attention.
Diaper changes. Feedings. Baths. Toys. Books. Time outs. Crying.
And if one little one doesn't need or want you, the other one does.
You can lose yourself in those things and me, that's how I've felt lately.
Lost and not myself lately.
Its hard when you don't have very little time for yourself.
You feel a bit like your losing your mind sometimes.

Honestly, I feel like I've lost my mind a bit.

And I want to find it, I want to find me again...

So, that's what I'm trying to do. 

Even if that means just putting the babies in the stroller and going for a walk with my camera. 

I find myself in those moments.

In those moments my heart is full because not only do I have my babies, but I have myself too.