35 weeks

Earrings: Made them. Headbands: Walmart. Tank: Old Navy. Skirt: Target. 

I wish these pictures were taken at a different location rather than our bedroom, but I guess thats what happens when you don't see your husband until ten o'clock at night. A busy day we both had. 

35 weeks. Again, like I always say I cannot believe it. Only 24 more days until my c-section. 

I've been marking down the days for a while now, but it feels like these last days are going to drag on.

I'm so anxious to meet Maeva and just have her here with us. 

I'm so ready to be a family of four and figure out how to adjust to that. 

I'm ready to see daddy with daughter or older brother with little sister. 

I'm ready to be a mama to a baby again...because even though Braden is still my baby (and always will be), I must face it, he certainly is growing! 

I'm ready for so much, but still nervous about things too. 

Can I be a mama of two and not lose my mind? ;) 

Can I function during the day with very little sleep? 

Can I? Can I? Can I?

I know that there will be days that I feel I can't, but I also know that the anxiety won't be around forever. I have help if I ask and Jesus is always there. Thankfully, Jesus is ALWAYS there. 

I'm feeling huge. My feet and legs hurt from carrying around this baby and at times it is super hard to breathe, but I don't want to complain about being pregnant... I was convicted about that the other day.

There are some women who aren't able to have babies or lose their babies. My heart aches for them. I cry for them because I can't imagine how they must feel, how their heart must ache. I hurt with them, really, I do. So I don't want to complain because it truly is a blessing. Thank You Lord for this baby growing in me and please Lord be with those women who can't have babies or have lost.... You are close to the broken hearted, I know this, so please Lord wrap Your arms around them. Amen. 

25 weeks

I can't believe I'm 25 weeks pregnant already! 

It honestly feels like just yesterday we were pleasantly surprised by this pregnancy.

It goes super fast the second time -- pretty certain I've been saying that a lot. 

It's crazy that 5 weeks (almost 4) from now I'll be 30 weeks pregnant, 

with only ten to go until this baby is full term. 

Maeva actually won't be inside me for the full forty weeks because I'm having a c-section, 

which is scheduled for August 20th. 

I know she could possibly come sooner, 

but its kind of cool to know that if not, then she'll be here by then. I actually liking knowing and am counting down the days til we get to meet our sweet baby girl! 

I've been super exhausted lately, which is why last week, a bump update just didn't happen.

I haven't been blogging as much as I would have liked either because of the exhaustion.

Who knew growing a baby and chasing a toddler could be so tiring!?!

A lot of the time I don't want to get out of bed, but I do because I have sweet boy to take care of,

but its hard to do more than that. I've tried motivating myself and somedays it works. 

I can feel Maeva getting stronger. Her kicks have really surprised me lately. 

The placenta is in the front of my belly -- I guess between her and my belly-- so her kicks hadn't

been that strong, but she's growing and getting bigger because her kicks make me go, "whoa!" 

I love it and am happy that daddy can feel her kicking more now.

I also am loving that Braden knows where his baby sister is. I'm not sure he completely gets

what is going on, but any time I ask him, "Where's your baby sister?" he either looks at my belly or comes over and pulls up my shirt to blow raspberries on it.

Melts my heart... can't wait to see him with her and just to have her here with us.