Can I just be honest and say that I'm feeling really overwhelmed by motherhood lately?
The rising early and going to bed late, constant whining and fighting, always needing me,
cleaning and cleaning and cleaning, having to figure out how to entertain them, and on and on.
It has me downright feeling like a failure.
But there's more it than that.
There's the fears.
Those are really leaving me overwhelmed
and leave me wanting to yank the blanket back over my head
until their grown and out on their own.
I'm overwhelmed in thinking about all that depends on me.
All I have to teach them. Not just things like how to count or the Abc's.
I mean, that can be overwhelming to me at times,
but the things that are overwhelming lately...
are things that are of a deeper matter, things that have me asking,
"If I don't teach them this will they forever be a mess?"
How they should treat other people and how other people should treat them,
How they should treat themselves,
Knowing and following Jesus,
and on and on that list could go as well.
I'm sure I'm not the only mama who deals with fears like those.
I'm sure I'm not the only mama who wonders
if she's going to completely jack up her children.
In fact, I know I'm not.
The other day at Bible study another mom said something that's stuck with me.
She said, "Anything we mess up, He can fix."
I'm holding tight to those words, wanting to remember them now and for later.
No matter the mistakes I make with my children (because I will), He can fix it all.
I'm putting my trust in Him with my kids and letting my worries and fears fall away.
It's not always easy, but He promises to take care of this life we live.
He has a plan in it all -- the good and the bad. He'll shape their little lives with it.
So, to the mama, who like me worries that you're going to mess up your kiddos.
Give it to God and know that He's the fixer of all things.
After all He did take our sin and fix it by taking it on Himself.
So thankful that He can fix all things.