Tuesday, July 26, 2011

How many times in a lifetime?

I see my Bible lying beside my bed.
I see the homeless man on the side of the road with a sign, asking for simple things, I could easily give.
I hear a voice in my head assuring me that I shouldn't speak the words on my mind, for they are unkind.
I ignore the Bible (again).
I act as if I don't see the man and drive right past.
I speak critical, harsh words. 
There's things I do on a daily basis that aren't Christ-like. Those are just a few things I can think of, but I know there are many more I could list, but I also am aware that there are many more I couldn't list. I'm wondering about time... theres so many seconds in the day, in which I am sure I ignore God. No, I'm not sure...I KNOW that I ignore Him. 
How many seconds...
in a day
in a week
in a month
in a year
in a decade
....in a lifetime...
do we ignore God and what He is telling us?
How many times do we walk away from Christ in a lifetime?
I know I ignore things He wants me to do for many reasons.
I don't pick up my Bible because honestly sometimes I get bored.
I drive past the homeless man because I'm fearful.
I say critical, harsh things because sometimes I just don't know how to shut my mouth. 
The list of reasons why go on and on, but really can be summed up simply by one word...
SELFISH. 
I want to be less selfish. I want to follow Christ and do what He asks of me. 
I want to stop blaming my lack of relationship and following Him on things like I don't have enough time and other people, but it will take it effort. It will take a lot of praying, obedience, putting aside myself, listening, and encouragement.

God, again I come to you asking for some motivation because I seriously lack it. I don't know whats wrong really, but something is. I know I need to not only read the Bible, but follow You in the other ways You tell me to. Help me to have open eyes and an open heart. Amen. 

::all photos from pinterest::

4 comments:

  1. this is beautiful- and, it's amazing, i was thinking the same thing yesterday about how often i ignore what god is telling me. i am so glad to be reading you :)

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  2. Oh, my dear friend!
    My heart hurts for you. I will keep you in my prayers. And know that HE LOVES YOU, even now when you have no motivation. Pray for Him to woo you to Himself.
    Love you! I'm praying for you, dear Kassie.

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  3. So true Kassie. What an awesome reflection. I have to constantly remind myself how God needs me to be his hands and feet and to look out for the opportunities to do so.

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