I can't be a mom today

I have days, like yesterday, where I think that.

Days where the moments feel too hard, moments where I feel like I don't have it in me. 

It isn't that, in those moments, I don't want to be a mom. 

I love my kiddos more than anything, but during those times I don't feel qualified.

I can't be a mom because...

I don't have enough patience, 

I'm not loving or kind enough,

I'm frustrated and irritated easily,

I'm tired (all the darn time),

and on and on. 

All these things that tell I'm not good enough pile high up in my head.

They mess with my heart and drag me so far down. 

The truth is I'm never going to be the perfect mom. There is no such thing, 

I'll probably never have all the patience or love I want to give. 

I'll be moody sometimes and I know that I'll always be tired. 

But, you know what makes me enough, what makes you enough? In motherhood, in anything?

Jesus.

He's the one who has made me a good mom.

And on there days where I feel like I can't make it through, He's there too. 

I'm holding tight to this truth!

I hope...

^^^Smiling at her brother^^^

I love having two children. 

Two, so close in age.

A brother and a sister.

They are the perfect pair. Bonded forever. 

They love each other so much. I see it every day. 

Braden and Maeva,
I hope you always love each other so much, so well.
I hope you always light up with the biggest smile when you see the other.
I hope you're always able to play and giggle.

^^^ Giving her a kiss^^^

I hope you're always the ones who makes the other laugh the most. 

I hope you're always wanting to be by each other's side. 

I hope you're always there -- friends, always with a shoulder when needed. 

I hope you always hug. 

I hope you can have fun and grow together.

I hope you always stand up and defend one another.

I hope you trust and care, always. 

I really do hope you'll be best friends. 

Trendy little link up + I can do better as a mom

^^^ Aren't they so cute in their Easter outfits?^^^

I don't know about you, but as a mom, I am very critical of myself.

I have a list in my mind of things, I do wrong, pretty much on a daily basis.

It never seems to get shorter, but only grow. 

I...

get irritated with my children more than I don't,

yell to much and get angry too quickly,

don't play with them enough or take them outside, or do things enough,

allow Braden to have way too much junk food because he fusses for it and its easier to give in,

am not consistent enough with discipline,

allow Braden to watch tv a lot more than I should, 

and on and on and on the list grows.

I don't know about you, but I'm tired of feeling bad about myself as a mom.

I'm tired of getting bed at night and thinking, "wow, today was a total failure."

I'm tired of thinking that tomorrow things will change, tomorrow I will be better.

I can be better right now, in this moment. 

I can be better as a mother, which will be beneficial for everyone in this home.

I can be kinder. I can take my babies outside more (Hello Spring!). 

I can give Braden only healthy choices when it comes to food and turn off the tv. 

I can be better with my discipline. 

Being a better mom starts right now, right here.

Not tomorrow. 

Linking up with Sunny with a Chance of Sprinkles for trendy little link up =)