Insecurities

I'm insecure. I feel a lot more insecure lately.
We all struggle with it in some areas.
Maybe I feel this way because I'm human
Or more so lately because I'm pregnant.

I'm insecure when it comes to being a wife and mother.
Sometimes, often actually, I can't help but think, "I suck at this."
I'm insecure when it comes to relationships.
Friendships, for some reason seem to be hard for me.
I struggle to be real. I struggle to be open.
I'm afraid of judgement. Really, really afraid.
I'm insecure when it comes to my relationship with God because it just never, in my mind, seems good enough. I never do enough when it comes to that relationship.
I never pray enough, pick up my Bible enough, live it out enough.

My insecurities all seem to be focused on the "not enough" feeling.
The thing with that, though, is that its a lie.
A lie, I believe, everyone often believes.
By the worlds standards, I will never be enough.
I'll never be pretty enough, skinny enough.
I'll never do wifehood and motherhood completely right.
I'll never be smart enough.
It goes on and on, really.
The devil wants me to fall for that lie. He wants me to be paralyzed by it.
But God doesn't.
His truth... it says something different.
He says I'm fearfully and wonderfully made.
He says I'm enough.
Instead of listening to the lie that I am never going to be good enough, I'll listen to God and know what He says is true. I am good enough because I am His child.

Thank goodness for God.