All that matters is Him and them

Today I want to write about something that has been on my heart for a while. I've been meaning to write it out, but for some reason, just haven't. I guess maybe because I'm a bit embarrassed by the truth, Or I don't want others to feel like I'm judging them. 

Blogging has changed for me. I mean, its still about writing things out, still about sharing my heart. 

There's one area I've noticed a change in...And its wanting. Wanting more things. I read a ton of blogs, so many that I cannot keep up with them all. I read lots of posts that are heartfelt, inspiring, encouraging, uplifting, but I also read posts about fashion, products, books, blog conferences. 

And those posts... they leave me wanting things. 

I hate that. I'm embarrassed by that. 

I read blogs and at times come away wanting things I didn't know I wanted until I read that post. 

I get on twitter and see tweets about things people just bought or want. 

I see the same on pinterest and even facebook at times. 

And all those posts leave me wanting more than I have. 

They leave me feeling ungrateful for what I do have. 

They leave me wishing I had more money.
At times it causes me to spend more than I should.

I hate that. I cringe at that. 

I guess its one of the reasons I haven't been keeping up with blogs as much as I used to.
I don't get on blogger to read blogs the way I used to. 

Because I don't want to be ungrateful. Because I don't need more. 

Because I don't need to spend money that we don't have. 

Because I just don't like the feeling of wanting. 

Because things really don't matter. 

The bank account may never be huge and I'm okay with that because money isn't really what matters. 

What matters most is God and my family. 

Really I don't need anything more than that.

Give me Jesus and give me my husband and babies and all is right in the world.

That's all I want, that's all I need.

Is this a struggle for anyone else? How do you deal with it, if it is? 

My battle with cloth diapering

I never really thought about using cloth diapers, not until I saw a handful of mom's around me doing so.

My thoughts were something along the lines of, "isn't that what they did in the old days?" 

Because, well, it was...

But I listened to mom's talk about it and how it saves money + is good for the environment. 

Not to mention they make the babies butts look so darn cute. 

So I made the decision that we'd use cloth diapers and we do, most of the time.
But can I just say that some times I really hate them? 

I despise doing laundry and they surely add a ton more because um, babies go to the bathroom a lot! ;)

It's not even the laundry part that makes me dislike them so much at times...

It is the fact that some times they are just nasty. 

I tried spraying them, but really it just got everywhere and I really didn't want to throw up.
So then I used a spatula. Not gonna lie... that was probably worse. 

Now, I just dunk em.

Still grossed out? 

Yeah, me too. Seriously, some times that makes me want to gag. 

Some times its just easier to use disposables and I do. 

I give myself grace in this area because at times its better to not deal with it. 

It's a battle really. I go back and forth between wanting to keep on using them and wanting to stop. 

I know though, that using them will save a ton of money because my goodness diapers are pricey! 

That's what will keep me using them. 

And the fact that I just got a box of them for $50 for baby Maeva. ;) Love finding them for cheap! 

Do you use cloth? Did you and then stop? 

What are your thoughts of cloth diapering? Worth it or no? 

It's the little things: home-made iced coffee, fall, and going to the park

This weeks been a tough one, but just like hard times come our way, so do blessings.

Here are some things that brightened my week. 

They may not be huge things, but little things that make a big difference to me.

My husband and I used to go to Starbucks every single day to get iced coffee, which was great for energy, but not so great for the bank account. Holy cow, so pricey! We decided that we should make them at home instead... so an expresso machine we got and the iced coffee is so tasty! One of the best purchases ever.

Fall. I love it. 

Theres so many good things in it. 

I especially love the trees and how they change.

Breathtaking really. 

Thank You God for the beauty.

I love spending time at the park with my family.

Braden is most happy when outside and it makes my heart happy.

The weather has been perfect for trips to the park! 

What little thing has blessed you this week?